Mind over matter or so I thought …

So I have not written in awhile to to the fact that I have been sick. Now what was wrong with me I still do not know. while I have had some medical problems all of which I try to eat right, exercise 4 days a week, and meditate ( whish really helps for the sceptics ). Also I think mind over matter plays a huge part in how you feel. Sure I have a heart problem, and other monor problems under control but I do what I feel is best and move along. I don’t focus everyday or advertise my problems. I just live, without emphasis on what is wrong with me. 

 

Last week however, NOTHING I did helped me is contolling the pain I was in. I woke up last Friday with a sorness in my upper back and neck. No biggie mind over matter. I just stretched more after exercising, took an aspirin, and thought tomorrow will be better. Well it got worse on Saturday so I did the same that day and applied heat, and again mind over matter tomorrow will be better. Sunday it got worse and it was pain I was feeling, not soreness. I could not turn to the right, raise my arm, or even swallow. Memorial day it was REALLY BAD !!! I ended up having to go to the emergency room. I got a muscle relaxer and shot in the butt of a pain med, and x-rays taken. Then I was discharged feeling better, but still in pain. The next morning I get a call from the ER doctor saying that he did no “notice” on my chart, that the nurse had written I had a temperature of 101. So I called the ER wing back, and the Er doctor asked I come in to get a cat scan done to rule out an infection. Now here is where it gets tricky I needed an authorization # from my medical insurance to get the cat scan done so I went home and made a doctors appt. I went to see my doctor and that doctor also felt a cat scan was needed but two days later my insurance denied it. They think I should have treatment ffor at least 2 weeks before the scan. Anything could be wrong. Pulled muscle, pinched nerve, or because I had a fever and had trouble swallowing, when the x- rays were reviewed they showed a possible “shadow” maybe a cysts or a tumor . So I have to go back on the 16th for more x-rays, and then try and get a cat scan again. We will see…

 

The good news is that the meds did work ! So I am only allowing myself to go and believe it was a pulled muscle. While I am still sore. I have returned to work and am only taking the meds as needed. The meds did away with my apatite, and I have lost 5 pounds. That affect still lingers and I am eating very little. We will see when and if I find out what is wrong with me until then mind over matter.