Is it January 1st because it feels like New Years

Every so often I know everyone does this I evaluate my  life’s situation. While most times I do it when the new year is approaching lately I have been thinking about finding a different job, or even moving to a different state. Maybe someplace warm like New Mexico. It just seems like every year for the last 11 years since I have worked where I work, I have wanted to quit my job. Usually money and financial responsibilities hold me back. About two years ago, however Jenn and I started looking into foster care and during that time we came up with a two year plan to get rid of our debt other than what we owe for the house and expences that we need to live day to day. Well 18 months later we managed to do just that. I also managed to cut back my hours as well and I have been working part time. 22 hours a week, plus watching our foster child Matty and keeping up the house. Jenn still works full time and as needed works a part time job too for an extra cushion to save money. Now however even working part time has me unhappy and while I have expressed everything I feel to Jenn and she has put quitting my job on the table time and time agian I just can’t do it. Am I emotionally attached to my job, is it the friends that I have made, or am I just scared of the what’s next  ? I really don’t know what I should do ? I feel my life is in limbo because of everything that is off with that area of my life. O like it when everything is in sinc.

 

While I know the New year is months away I need a change. I want a change I just need to figure out what is exactly is holding me back and then go for what it is I really want.

 

Has anyone else ever felt this way ? Has anyone else ever felt this way and figured it all out ?  any advice would help.

Just Five

I have five more work days and then I am off until September 2nd. We have a three day getaway for Jenn and I in Canandagua lake. I got a really good deal on a cabin right on the lake. we are also planning on a couple of day trips. We really want to go to the NYS fair, Niagara falls, and of cours we are going to try and get some things done around the house. we really would like to get Matty’s bedroom painted. I really need a break away from work to clear my mind. I also want to spend time with Jenn. It is always nice to reconnect. I think this vacation will have many many positive benefits. 

 

This past weekend we had a date night and we went to a really nice  place that serves great food it is a old railroad depot in Leroy. They serve you fresh baked goods with your meal, and everything tasted really good ! From there we went to the casino and  Jenn won $200, then we came home. Saturday we went hiking after breakfast at North Hampton, then we walked around the arts festival in Brockport. Sunday we went to Benjamins graduation party. It was a  nice weekend. 

We are very excited too with our garden. I planted a small fairy tale pumpkin plnat next to the porch on the side of the house and we have five pumkins growing with lots more on the way. we also have had lots of cucumbers, tomatoes, squash, lemons, limes, cilantro, mint, blueberries, peaches, and in about a week we will have pinto beans, orange and white tomatoes. Harvesting is always alot of fun to see something grow, well it is very gratifying.

Anti aging tips. Who needs them

Well last night I was watching a taped show of Oprah. she had the usual Dr. Oz going over some anti aging tips, and it got me thinking is aging reall all that bad ? For me I have embraced it because as the years go by I find myself being in a better place both emotionally and physically. Sure its nice to hear about certain vitamins which he said are good to take. Vitamin A, a multi of the B’s, 500mg of the C, and 1000 IU’s of the D. My parents look away sometimes when I eat with them becasue for the last 5 years I have taken vitamins, and they think it is all too much. I know they work, and physically I feel great. So when they see me take a handful of vitamins after a meal they shake their heads and look away. 

 

Now emotionally I am at a better place I have weeded out many toxic people in my life and now have a good circle of friends. My family comes first above and beyond anything else. My job is part time so I have managed to survive without allowing myself to get tainted. Its good to be at a place in your life where you are not waiting for the ball to drop. You are at a good place and you know as long as you keep doing what you are doing it will all be okay, maybe better. Could I have said that five years ago ? NO !!! So aging is fun, realizing ones potential is wonderful. So take your vitamins, watch what you eat, exercise but as for trying to turn back time, for me,  NO THANKS I would rather stay right where I am. 

Peace to all who enter here.